Hmph when the things that used to interest you, no longer do.
Hmph at some side effects of growth 😇.
And I'll be honest, hmph at the internal dialog, both good and bad💅💃.
But here's the thing, I know it to be seasonal🌬️.
As animals we are sensitive to and dependent on the happenings of the earth. Be it energetically or atmospherically, everything is information bouncing off of each other. We take information in and affects how we feel and think.
I have tried to get better at wintering and adjusting to/avoiding the negative parts of it.
Every year I feel a little bit closer to accepting winter while I continue to daydream about if I would be even more happy living on a beach with perfect weather everyday (and a nice fruit juice stand nearby that I can walk to 😘).
There are people that have this experience, why shan't it be me?
I say to me.
It really should be me.
I would still have the internal winter because that's just part of life. I'm not reliant on living in a beach town to be happy but it would be like a cherry on top of the cake situation.
But for now, I am practicing acceptance with winter 😅🥲.
I am learning things this winter.
I'm having realizations about life and myself and the nature of existence. I guess I don't really have a choice 🥲.
I picked up a new lil notebook and I am very pleased. The ending of one notebook and the start in another one is an exciting change of hands. A chapter is done, my new life(journal) begins.
What lessons will I learn this time?
What “exciting” things did I not see coming.
Whose name will be dropped, what words and phrases will I make up?
Winter is always a delicious time to write for me and that's something to be thankful about…I guess 😝😝😝.
Ok that's enough for tonight, back to winterizing.
In Chill Vibes Only,
-Tahlia
