Energy is infinite and energy is hardcore finite.
On one hand, I see that everything is connected and there's no rush to get to something that isn't guaranteed, only now is what matters.
On the other hand, I feel an urge to not waste any time at all. I am questioning often, is this conversation or situation a bad use of my time 🤔, my limited time and uncertainty with the current existence is in a battle with a deeper belief of continuity.
Do I relax or do I need to force and arrange?
I tend to do a mix of the two, just trying to be balanced and accepting of multiple ideas at the same time.
The more that I am aware and see that everything is in a constant cycle of death and rebirth, the easier it is to sit back, relax, and laugh about it.
I have to laugh at the absurdity of it all as some sense of stability.
Life is a wild wave and that's actually something that you can count on and expect.
Goofy ass existence if you ask me.
It's also pretty fun if you let it be.