That is hard to explain.
But luckily I've been able to rest and do as I please for a week.
I went to get acupuncture today, and after I rattled off a myriad of things to Auny, she said that she had my diagnosis and that she would be doing more Reiki as my symptoms seemed to be more emotional than physical.
She wasn't wrong of course.
I have never had acupuncture or Reiki though I am a curious cat and I will try almost anything once.
She first began by reading my chakras to find what was open and what ones were closed.
I have also never had that done and I thought it was interesting and also in some ways disturbed me a little bit. Sometimes we hold onto things more than we want to admit. She said that there had been something recently that happened that had closed a few off.
It could have been anything and my mind started flipping through the possibilities.
After that she performed Reiki. I won't go into what she said as she was doing it but I couldn't help but have some sort of convulsive crying. I don't have a lot of words for that part of the experience other than it was very intense for me.
And then she did acupuncture on me which was interesting but tbh I was still recovering from the other experience.
After it all she asked me how I felt and I really wasn't sure how I did feel. In a daze I walked back to my Airbnb to chill for a brief moment, ringing the towel of my tear ducts.
I decided to go to this very good ramen shop even though even walking seemed like too much. I had beetroot gyoza and vegan ramen. Both were incredibly delicious and I was starting to feel like a human again.
Auny told me rest was best post this type of ordeal(my words, not hers) and that's what I've done for the rest of the day. Relaxed. A few leaks of the old cry faucets again, and rest.
There were many things I could have done today but all I wanted to do was rest.
I have not rested this much on any trip that I've had. It's been amazing to be free to do so and I feel like it is much needed because there already is too much waiting for me to do back in Tulsa.
Back to it now.