İstanbul Night 1 / by Tahlia Roper

That's right, I made it to İstanbul!

A quick pass through customs and a happenstance of timing. I had no idea where to pick up my checked bag but I walked right by just as it was coming off a claim belt.

My uber hospitable host picked me up from the IST airport (which is so huge) and we headed to Beşiktaş.

After we arrived at his very lovely apartment, I showered the travel filth off of me and became new again. We ventured out on foot (as is the way) in search of food and drink.

There are a lot of people in Istanbul and apparently they're all gorgeous. I became a little verklempt at the sights, sounds, and smells of this new to me city.

We traversed quite a bit of land from Beşiktaş to Cihangir and ended up at this delicious thai food place.

After a spicy and delicious meal we went for a cocktail at Geyik.

Everyone in İstanbul smokes, even the cats. I had no idea.

I fought off a cat drinking toilet water to use the bathroom, what a treat for me.

We walked down to the waterside for a bit then headed back to Beşiktaş to sleep.

I tried to sleep but was unsuccessful, my first real bout of jet lag I suppose. I also had a very large amount of anxiety-inducing intrusive thoughts which is very rare for me. Like a little mild panic of everything that I had seen and done in a short amount of time since leaving Tulsa on Thursday.

I live in a very controlled and predictable space in Tulsa, traveling is neither controlled or predictable. This is good for me I say. For the first time in a hot minute, a slight discomfort was felt.

I know that I needed something that I would get from this trip but I don't think I realized that what I needed was to be uncomfortable and thrust into a world unknown. İstanbul makes me feel very small and insignificant and in a weird way that can be freeing. It's easy for me to think about my fragility in Tulsa where even when I think about it, it seems off a ways. But here, it somehow seems more real.

I called my mommy like a little baby and ranted to her all the things that I was feeling and that made me feel 100% better. Acknowledgement has a funny way of doing that.

I watched the sun rise from the terrace with the Bosphorus in view and then did my meditation to the sound of seagulls.

View of a seagull from a triangle window

The view from above the bed in the loft I'm sleeping in, its cute, peaceful, and that bird is actually huge.

Day 2 here I come.